The countdown to 10/12 :')

It's a few minutes to midnight and I'm pretty sure my sayang is fast asleep at this very moment. I hinted him today when we went out but he seemed to have forgotten the date *sigh* well, am not surprised! He's always been very bad with dates. A great combo with me being really really bad with numbers. Well anyway, he I am blogging, wishing my self, and my sayang our day *tsk tsk*

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY SAYANG ...
8 YEARS OF UPS AND DOWNS, CRIES AND LAUGHTERS, GIGGLES AND FIGHTS, BUT HERE WE ARE STILL CRAZY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER.
ALL THE TESTS WE'VE GONE THROUGH AND ALL SADNESS IS NOW AWAY.
THANK YOU TO LORD ABOVE FOR MAKING OUR WISHES COMING TRUE.
IN A FEW MONTHS TIME, I'LL BE IN YOUR ARMS AS YOURS FOR ETERNITY.
I LOVE YOU BABY.
YOU KNOW I ALWAYS DO.
AND I KNOW WHEN I SAY THIS TO YOU, YOU WILL REPLY ME SAYING:
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW I DO :')

Our engagement is 20 days away now. Preparation has gone well, Alhamdulillah. The wedding? Families want it soon but Sharul and I want it in October. Why? Because the number "10" has always been our number. But we'll see. You can never tell when it's gonna be held ;)

I need your blessings people. Pray for our happiness and eternal love ya :) Thank you all. I love you all! Mwaahss!! ;)

And yes, I love YOU Mohammad Shahrul Faidzal. Forever and always :')

... and the time keeps ticking ... :)

The kitty's treatment

I took Fluffy to the Angel vet at 10am. We were the first that morning (it opens at 10am daily). It's the nearest vet and we happened to send Prince Whiny there too last time. The ex owner also once told us that Fluffy's parents and litter-mate were sent there too for treatments.

Fluffy's temperature was 39.9 and her weight was 2.36kg. She had to take a shot to lower her fever and took some pills. She has to take antibiotics and vitamins to boost up her immune system. The doc said she might not have taken her vaccinated shot or else she wouldn't have had the fever so high. So I guess, the shots she got two months back were just to treat the ringworm she had .. So we've gotta take her to the vet again for the shot. Might cost us $70 for a full vaccinatated shot package or another which will cost us $40. Prince Whiny will have to take the shot too.

So for now, Fluffy is under medication. She won't take her shower for at least 2 weeks, which I think she'll be happy to pfft! She's with Sharul tonight. When I left, she refused to eat anything. Her cooked chicken meat was untouched. Prince Whiny ate half of it instead so it's not the meat. It's Fluffy unwilling to eat. But she drinks lots of water today, which is a good sign at least.

Before leaving, I requested the doc to check Fluffy's gums, just to make sure she doesn't have the ulcers, which she doesn't thank God! The red dots I found on the gums were actually the effects from the dry food she's been eating. They're hard so it leaves sort of scars on the gums. So he requested me to prepare wet food for Fluffy occasionally.

Here I upload pictures of her at the vet, and after the treatment. She looks weak yeah .. Kesian ...

She was leaning against me the whole time .. scared ..

The doc taking Fluffy's temperature ..

She looked sick still after the shot .. Kesian .. :(

Fluffy in the car ..

I guess she missed her daddy coz he did! ;)

Don't we share the same button nose? ;)

Fluffy was shaking so I wrapped her with my scarf. It helped her and she seemed to love it too :)

Like mummy like kitty ;)

More poses of Fluffy with the scarf :)Sleeping on the way home .. Kesian ..

PS: Reminders!

Lessons learnt today:
1. Watery eyes is not normal for cats. This is a sign of one going feverish or having cold.
2. Other signs of cats with cold: i. they prefer being alone, ii. they find comfort in dry cold area like the toilet, iii. sneeze too often, iv. watery poo.
3. Should give cats wet food occasionally with the the dry ones to protect their gums.
4. Ulcers is fatal to cats. Signs of ulcers: reddish dots on gums and very bad breath.
5. Cats need to be groomed often to avoid loss of hair. Comb the coat everyday.
6. There are different kinds of vaccine for cats: the highest is F5 which is to prevent cats from leukemia but can be dangerous to cats with weak immune system. Normal vaccine for all cats is F1.
7. No shower for cats with cold or flu.
8. Put aside an amount of fund for any emergency case that may arise so cats can be treated without delay.
9: Careful when cutting off cats nails. Put the nails under bright light and you'll see fine lines of nail shapes within the nails. The fine lines should not be cut or cats will bleed. The fine lines are their veins.

*Sources learnt from the doc at the vet and Snow Shoe. Thanks a lot for the info! :)

The ulcer alert!

Fluffy stayed overnight again. She was okay last night, though was a bit different. She was a bit moody. She woke me up in the middle of the night to play with and I did stay awake to play along then fell asleep. But this morning, she was passive. And feverish. She was shaky even. Like she's sick or something. She's weak now :(

Sleeping in my arms, I'm hoping she'll be fine. Sharul is on his way picking us up now. I don't think we'll wait till tomorrow to bring her to the government vet. Friends also suggested me to bring her soon and upon Snow Shoe and Rozi's advice, I learnt that Fluffy has ulcers! I checked her gums and there are red dots here and there. Her breath also smells bad, like it has been the past weeks. We thought it was nothing. And ulcers can cause fatal to cats. I didn't know ... Never had I thought I'd cry for a cat :'(

She's sleeping still now. Her breathing is fast. I hope she'll make it. We're going to Petlink or Anicare later. With very limited knowledge of cats, I am greatly thankful to cat experts out there! Really I do!!

My Fluffy a moment ago, before again dozing off to sleep ... :(

The day it's 40% done!

So, just an update of the resumed plan ;) It's successfully done yeay! And the kain for my baju for the function next month is now with the tailor. I left it all to her to design (am so NOT into fashion so I only have her to depend on huhu~~ all this time I only cut a very gabah-gabah baju kurung so .. go figure!).

The kain is like what I wanted: grey silk base and light blue organza with darker blue flowers. Yanti was there helping me (thanks kazen kamiii mwahh!!) and both materials cost me $110. So it's not bad :) I am even happier knowing that the cost for making the baju is only $45. So altogether it's $155. Just $5 more than the cost of renting a baju, I get to keep this baju that I made. Woot woot! :D Hopefully it'd look nice on me, considering how B-I-G I am huhu~~ I should lose weight. Fast!!

Sharul and I this evening also sat down and talked with his parents about our engagement plan. To our surprise, his mom had actually told her side of extended families of our nikah and wedding dates! According to her, the dates should be booked so the others in the families would not hold any weddings whatsoever on the same dates that we have in our calendar. I'm impressed I must say, and there we were unaware of their unexpected actions. As for my side, my uncles and aunts have been informed of the function. The trouble is that most of them are gonna celebrate new year at the Empire Hotel. So they have to check out by mid day the next day. Sorry to cut their excitement half way but I am not backing off this time hehehh ;P

Taraaa~~ What do you think?? Would I look good in this?? Yes?? No?? huhu~~

I have lost a few inches (yeay!) but I need to lose more weight! I've 10 more months for my actual big day aiyoo~~

*Do not, I repeat, do NOT check the measurements*

Next in the list are uncountable .. I have them all in the head. Just don't wanna really get into it just yet coz I am in the middle of doing something else at the moment: applying for pursuing my postgraduate course. It's something that I have just decided to do so recently .. last night actually. I'm not hoping so much to get it but it's worth trying. This is because a friend finally got it after 5 years of applications and she's pretty good, while I am just .. you know *bleurghh*

I guess it's about time to start trying anyway. I've gotta think of my future. Well, not actually for mine, but for my unborn children, now that I am starting to take a big step in the many stages of my life. I am gonna sit for my IELTS exam on 29th and 30th January (which costs me $285 erk!!). I was told by a counselor I seeked help from this morning that my A1 English O'Level is no longer valid (damn it!), so that doesn't leave me enough choice right pfft! After getting some advice today, I have a bit of an idea of what I am gonna do for my Master.

Then again, I've to study for my General Order and Finance Regulation papers, which I'm gonna sit on this coming 16th and 23rd. Without passing both, for sure I can NOT get the scholarship. And I haven't started studying yet! Yikes!

Suzi, get on your butt now and get on with it!

Tomorrow, I've to see HL for a reference letter (I hope she's okay with it) and the second person is yet to be decided. The crazy thought is .. I am actually thinking of asking my ex boss (who kicked me out) to do me the favour. Dunno why I thought of him at first hand but .. well, we'll see! At least, I still remember we used to work professionally well before. Just hope that he still does *sigh*


PS: Today was better with a two-hour gathering where Ain introduced her little angel, Baby Alyssa. Unplanned, we all bought the little one presents. I bought her a pink Disney t-shirt with hood (with the cartoon character on its top) and pants. Little Alyssa is so adorable! She has big eyes that nobody could ever tell that she's actually half Chinese :D

So attached with her mummy :)

Baby Alyssa admiring the gift I bought her :) She loves it pink too!

Told ya she has big eyes! Macam bukan anak Cina banarrr!

Us today. The rest couldn't make it. It's very nice to finally see both mummy and baby after almost a year not meeting each other :)

The unplanned Tuesday

The plan was actually me and Yanti going out surveying for my engagement baju, indecisively the rented one or cut one by the tailor. The bottom line was, us going out to at least settle one bit of my next month's function. But then, my aunt came to the house this morning and asked my mum out to the salon, then off to Yanti's house to pay a visit. It's sort of a culture in the family to peek into the bride or groom-to-be to see what they can get hold of for the actual day. So, the plan had to be postponed. I went there decorating Yanti's stairs instead since her hantaran decorations were all done yesterday.

It took us 4 straight hours to complete the one staircase heading towards the room where the aisle is gonna be installed. We bought the accessories some time last week and today was basically putting everything together. It was great to see the outcome of the 4 hours struggle (since it was our first attempt: the past weddings had been decorated by outsiders which involved extra cash out!). Well, as for me, I am impressed with our work. The past experiences decorating the school's hall had, in a way, helped a lot! ;) I didn't get enough energy to take out my camera so I just took a shot of the top of the stairs with my hand phone. Hope Yanti doesn't mind me uploading these hehehhee ;)

The base is golden in colour and the organza is light pink: the colour of the couple's baju pengantin on the wedding day :)

We actually wanted to make the centre's purple flowers into a love shape but we thought having them circling the 3 pink roses in the middle would look better and neater :)

Later on at 9pm, Sharul and I went to Soto Tinis for dinner (spoiling my diet pfft!!) where the bride AND groom-to-be were waiting. I know! 10 days before the nikah, they still go out! So much into each other I guess ;)

We needed the hot soup: it was rainy the whole day today. Yet, not quite a good excuse for the couple to meet up 10 days BEFORE the nikah. Ketulahan banarrr!! Hehehee :P

After dinner, Sharul and I went to the tailor. I wanted to know the approximate price for the baju I've wanted them to cut. The hour's chit-chat with the Indonesian tailors helped me a lot in choosing what kind of materials I should buy for the baju that I want. Tomorrow, the postponed plan shall resume, hopefully!

I've started counting the days now heeee :D

PS: On the way to the tailor, I asked Sharul whether we'd stay separated for a month before our nikah or not, as expected by the Malay tradition. He said, "Of course!" I told him I didn't mind, with one condition. He smiled and asked, "You can't stay away from me, can you?" I replied, "Sure I can. But the cats MUST be with me!" His smile faded away. Heeee :P

The hips won't 'lie'

I am still struggling to relax my muscles now. I've been suffering from back pain since last week. I did go for a foot massage, and shoulders. The result, was okay at first but now the pain is back!

Today's 5 hours helping Yanti with her hantaran decorations had made it worse too. I was maybe pushing myself too hard with the decos. It's 11 days left for her big day and I know we need to get it all done the soonest. Finally, we managed to finish all, maybe a few touch-ups here and there. The theme purple-silver-black is elegantly presented and I am proud to be a helping hand :) I can't wait to upload the pictures here but I know I shouldn't spoil it before the big day comes. 11 days .. wow cousin! Dup-dap-dup-dap!! Heee :D

My baju for her wedding is ready. Am gonna pick it up tomorrow. She's gonna wear pink, so do we. Not that I have a choice pfft! Yanti, if you read this, you know I don't fancy pick so ... :P Anyway, am going bling-bling on your day woot woot! Hehhee :D

Oooh my back! My hips! I can't lie down peeps. Now am face down and can't seem to move. If I do, my hips would send the message: "STOP!" to my head.

I guess I need another massage soon. Nyiaaahhhh .... Sakiiiitttt huhuhu~~~

The lies

I just read a dear friend's entries which shocked me. A week off the lappy, this is not what I fancy seeing :'( I wish I am there for her lending her my shoulders to cry on. I hope she will keep writing because I will be there 'listening'. To my dear Izz, I feel ya. Please be strong okay *hugs* ..

I know how she feels. I was in her shoe before. Sometimes when I'm alone, I'd feel that my life is full of drama. A telenovela. Reminiscing my past relationships, I am thankful that I survive each and every one of it. Alhamdulillah. Years ago I felt that I wouldn't. I felt like dying even. Allah is Great. He gave me pain but he gave me life in the end. Alhamdulillah..

In 1992, I had a crush on a guy next door. You know, the monkey love thing. He liked me too and I was crazy about him. We rarely met but would be hanging on the phone for many hours after school. My mum liked him too coz his parents were my parents' college friends. 7 years of waiting, I was eventually his girlfriend. It was the happiest moment then. I was 19 and everything was beautiful. I paged him one day (there was no handphone yet but pager) and his girlfriend returned the message. She called and told me he's hers. I was hurt. The 7 years wait was wasted after only 7 days of relationship. He confessed and apologised. We remain friends now.

Heart broken, I met a guy soon after. It was him making the moves. I liked him at once. Maybe because I was lonely. He was true good to be true. But it didn't last long too. My heart was his till his wife wrote me a letter. Yes, his wife! I had no idea at all. It ended there of course but my heart was torn apart. Again. The wife understood. It was not the first time she said ..

Two years after that, I met another. I was cured then. Thanks to friends in Uni (you know who you are!). It was short too but very meaningful. He was different. He was special. But after three beautiful months, that one night, he called. Crying. His wedding was coming, he said. He was engaged and I was speechless ..

It was the greatest pain I had ever endured. I thought I would die. He said he met me too late. The engagement went on just days before we met. He cried and even begged me to promise to wait for him after 3 months of the wedding. He planned to divorce the wife!! Of course I said 'no'. Though I loved him, I could never do that to another woman, whom I knew was in my shoe too. He rang me up the night of his wedding and to prove his love to me, he left the wife that very night! Silly. I switched off my phone to stop his stupidity. He got the message.

It was painful. But nothing compared to the pain seeing him on the aisle with her .. Years and years I tried to heal, Sharul was there for me all along. He understood well as the third guy was his very own cousin. He knew he was hurt too.

It was love at first sight for Sharul. He knew I was healing so he gave me all the time that I needed. Even when we were finally together, he knew I was not giving him my whole because of what happened. I was trying to save the last piece of my heart, at least for my own. Yet he patiently waited for me. For that, I am forever thankful.

Alhamdulillah. Thank you Ya Allah for sending Sharul to me. Now I am happy. More than ever :')

Reading Izz's entries really break my heart. I know it's too much to bear. Nothing can stop the pain now and I wish I could say something that would heal the pain right away but I know .. I know nothing can do the job now. In her entry I left a lengthy comment anyway:

"i’m sorry this happened to you. i know exactly how you feel. it happened to me too. twice! and i was innocent at both times. be strong. Allah is Great. he is talking to you now by giving you this trial. i know it’s too much to bear but remember, pain is also a cure. it erases our past sins. so be blessed for all these. i know it’s easy for me to say this but i was in your shoe before. and i survived! it takes times of course. after many years i eventually find my happiness. when i lost both times, i blamed them for the pure love that i poured out. can’t blame them too coz they were hurt too.

we all know love comes by its own. we never ask for it. when the time is right, we just feel its presence. are we to blame to feel it? are they to blame to lie to us? when we know they are hurting too? it’s crazy yes. only time can heal the pain. i hope it will not take long for you as it took me.

all i can say now is, be strong. remember, things happen for a reason. now you know the answers to all the confusions all this time right..please be sure that you will be fine because tears may fall and heart breaks today but tomorrow will always come waiting for your smile..

i wish i am next to you now and give you a big big hug. i would lend you my shoulders for you to cry on. singapore is a good idea. relax your mind. meet people. don’t be alone because loneliness can kill you! keep writing and we will be here ‘listening’.. *hugs*

we love you sis. please be strong.."

I wish she'd 'listen' and be strong now. So Izz, please remember, you will survive it. I did .. *hugs*