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Friday, 30 October 2009

The birthday treats

It was Leng's. We had it at Wecan Restaurant. Kinda quick coz the service was slow and it closed at 10pm. The food just arrived at 9pm so you can imagine how short the time we had there: we ordered the food some time after 8pm.

Anyway, more updates on it soon. Also, another entry on today's surprise party for Mr. Tan, our chief marker. I will share the pictures and stories tomorrow. Now, am off to bed. Been a long day..

Tuesday, 27 October 2009

The facebook comments part II

Yesterday, HL called me and we sat chatting about what happened to me recently. She wasn't happy finding out the story having known that the culprit who started the whole bad mouthing is actually an old friend. I don't know who she is (yes, it's a SHE) but I'm sure one day Z and I will find out. We're not gonna start a war or anything childish. We just wanna know who so we could watch our backs when we're with her. After all, we're colleagues. It's not a healthy professional environment making a big fuss out of something that we KNOW untrue.

So, HL confessed yesterday. She did hear stuff about me. Bad stuff. I shared in the previous entry that she told those concerned off, telling them to stop bitching about me. When I thanked her, she said that she wasn't doing it for me but doing it for justice sake. HL I know is a woman of charisma: she says what she sees. So, having her siding me, without me asking, is really a big honour on my part. I am forever thankful.

What touched me was when she told me she purposely went down to my new workplace to talk to my admin bosses, clearing things out about the bad mouthing gossips about me. It must sound very ugly that she chose to go see my bosses personally in their office, just to tell them NOT to listen to any of those comments. I was speechless when she told me this yesterday. The only time I bumped into her at work was some time in June-July this year. And guess what, that WAS the time she did it all. She even invited me to lunch, together with my bosses. I was like ... lost for words. I was touched :') Reminiscing that day, we, the four of us, had lunch and I was too gullible to notice that they WERE actually just discussing about me back in the office.

I can never thank her enough for clearing up my name. HL, my mentor, my friend, my saviour. Alhamdulillah ya Allah. You tested me, letting me taste pain and agony, but you sent her to save me too. These are all your blessings. Your blessings in disguise :')

So this morning, feeling better, I had my Facebook status updated. When I got home, I smiled reading the comments left by colleagues and friends, also HL. They made my day. I am truly touched :')


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Suzila Ahmad says: it's okay .. i still have people believing in me : )

16 hours ago via Mobile Web · ·
Karuk Karukawa
Karuk Karukawa
I will always believe in ka yong.
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Mabel Kok
Mabel Kok
count me in dear =) have a nice day!
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Ade Shikin
Ade Shikin
im one of them hehe;P
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Fiza Darusalam
Fiza Darusalam
me too!! :D
14 hours ago · Delete
Marina Abdullah Sitau
Marina Abdullah Sitau
Zi......... I had a bad day today :( But I guess I can borrow ur statement above :)
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
hmm banar tu g tapi aku ngalih tadi so aku masih lagi spitting cobra...i dont like that side of me but hey i think they desrved it!!
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
thanks peeps! :)
mina, still? like me jua tu. sure you can dear :) *hugs*
zul, sometimes we need to have that skill to get things done. if we just let them be, they'll take us for granted. i'm sure you hate that more than having your spitting cobra talent ;)
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
oyeah thats for sure :D
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Lena Mh
Lena Mh
count me in. you can always cry on my shoulder too, anytime..
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
thanks hjh lena. i'm forever thankful for what u've done for me :') *salute*
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PS: After marking right up till 6.30pm, I had dinner with my sister as we skipped lunch yesterday to meet our marking quotas. Though we're living under the same roof, in fact, our rooms are just next door to each other, we seldom sit down and talk like we used to. So we did some catching up on updates and stuff. When it was my turn, I shared my recent tragedy. Her comment made me laugh. She said: Your life is so full of drama! She's right. And I never asked for it ...

Monday, 26 October 2009

The time I treasured much

I skipped yesterday's marking. It was Sunday after all. The only day in a week that Sharul is ever free. I actually planned to work. So yesterday morning, I asked Sharul to pick me up and send me off. It's been ages we didn't go out breakfast so I was thinking he'd drop me off after that. Little that I know he was reluctant to do so. His reason was simple: it's SUNDAY. I, matter of fact, accepted : )

There was a bit of misunderstanding that morning though. I cried like a baby in the car but Sharul melted me and soon after he made me smile again *blush* He said: "Please don't cry. sayang. Your tears are too precious to fall .." He still has it! Yes he has!! :')

I spent the rest of the day with him; shopping for my room (soon to be his too so he has to contribute some ideas, of any decos, and money for sure *winks*), and dinner. I had a relaxing day, all day. And yes, also cuddling both Prince Whiny and Fluffy : )

Today, I've set my target. Since I missed Sunday, I know I've to cover yesterday's work, which means I've to do double to catch up with the rest. I must!

As for this morning people, I am happy! :D


P.S: I changed my facebook profile picture. Sharul's sisters had been complaining on the previous one! I didn't have any recent picture of me alone so I uploaded this:

... and edited by Nadia, Sharul's little sister. Now everyone is happy and friends even thought that this is one of our pre-wedding shots LOL! :D

Sunday, 25 October 2009

The bad day and facebook comments

So it started when I hung out at a friend's office at the workplace I'm doing the marking. She then came up with an info that she knew a few colleagues of mine, who, according to her, had mentioned me and another colleague, Z. They told her that I am a BOSSY bitch at work and that Z is DISORGANISED. I don't know about me but I am sure Z is NOT DISORGANISED. Without her, the place is a wreck! About me being BOSSY .. that I need sincere comments from others.

I updated my Facebook status right away and by the end of the day, I got some very supporting comments. Some are in Malay and I've decided not to change any of it. I treasure all my friends' thoughts of me.

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Suzila Ahmad says: i dare YOU say it to my face!!

Anih Seven
Anih Seven
Wassup ling? Is it sumthng related with yestrday story? F yes, i tink it time 4 u to take action. Ku fikirkn smpi bila kan diam ling..
Yesterday at 11:52am · Delete
Suria Jade
Suria Jade
dear u need to be calm. don stoop to their level. you are doing the right thing. juz ingat that.
Yesterday at 11:57am · Delete
Nadira Abdullah
Nadira Abdullah
Knapa zi? Is it d two faced b%t@¤?? Story me!
Yesterday at 12:00pm · Delete
Md Shahrul Sofian
Md Shahrul Sofian
What st0ry yesterday? Napa sygku!?
Yesterday at 12:27pm · Delete
Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Anih,Ayut.. I don't think it's her this time but IF she's behind this,i swear am gonna bitch slap her right away!
Yesterday at 12:55pm · Delete
Suria Jade
Suria Jade
juz watch your back. don do anything stupid masa ani. watever hapens now will reflect badly on you. juz be strong. jgn emotional.
Yesterday at 12:58pm · Delete
Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Suria,i appreciate your warning me.It means a lot.Will try to be less extrovert at work from now on.Thanks a million babe *hugs*
Yesterday at 12:58pm · Delete
Suria Jade
Suria Jade
dun change. be yourself aja. no matter wat ppl will still be jeles of you. be careful aja.
Yesterday at 1:00pm · Delete
Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Sayang,take me out! I need some air.. *thanks for calling just now.I love you..*
Yesterday at 1:06pm · Delete
Mabel Kok
Mabel Kok
take good care, chill darling. I duno wat happen but im at ur side..
Yesterday at 1:36pm · Delete
Renn H.a.j
Renn H.a.j
adui...cian jua relexxx aja btw say it 2 ur face kan.... u'r cute ;) *winks*
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Thanks Ain,Renn..
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Iqa Ximenn Leong
Iqa Ximenn Leong
Hi zie...r u ok?ur still marking rite?Ada org jahati u kh??sabar k...tu ur boyfie pujuk tu hehe...
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Hi iqa..A bad day today..Yes marking.Very slow now..Awu,he better takes me out later or i'll explode!
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Md Shahrul Sofian
Md Shahrul Sofian
Always love u.. Bh krg tane jln k. Pukul brapa blek krg? Ill pick u up later. Kajap g ku blek ne k
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Zmah Hm
Zmah Hm
Ling... andangnya people see only one side... mun kan diikutkan wah... tani pun buleh point out THEIR own mistakes... lagitah ketara and irresponsible. hugsss

you gotta show 'em! well bukan plg ku nyuruh kelaie. haha...
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Iqa Ximenn Leong
Iqa Ximenn Leong
Hope he can make u feel lot better....*hugs*
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
bannar ti g...memang org ani mun sudah salah tapi inda mau mngakun tapi diri pulang d ucapkan labih2...iatah dasar inda sadarkan diri tu namanyaaaa
7 hours ago · Delete
Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Iqa,thanks *hugs* zmah,zul..Awu,mental ku hari ni sampai marking pun slow.Wonder ku jua bila masa jua ku cematu?? Yatah kan,mun sudah sakit hati arah dangan,apa2 pun ku buat,bida tah dimata bisdia.Boring eh!! Hmmph!!!
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
cani sja g..pikirkan sja apa yg tani buat atu lurus..bukannya tani buat salah..as long as ppl who matters appreciate me i will be okay....

suuuuyaaaaaa, horsey wannaa hear the real meowing story from uuu
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Zmah Hm
Zmah Hm
yeap. as long as those who matters knows what we do. i can think of why they'd say that zi.. anyway, andangnya human nature kan... sudah something bad happens... find blame... tapi anikan tarang2 sudah masih g kan blame orang. pfft.
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
kamu .. kamu .. kamu .. *tsk tsk* aku sasakkkk! *breathe in breathe out* jalan ku ni!!!

kepada manusia2 yg banci aku atu, hentam tah kamu! cakap tah kamu sana tu. tapi ingat! inda selamanya kamu hidup memfitnah, memburukkan urang lain. so sebelum kamu mati, baik tah insaf. nda ku kacau hidup kamu. sabar saja ku.

zul, we just do what we have to do babe. BERSABAR. Allah lagi tau. i feel ya. nda siok nyamu kena buat cemani! BORINGGG!! *sigh*
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
andangnya tapi i will do what i do as i do as i wish as long as what i do is right by me by my religion by my conscience so they can say what they want when they want for i know in my mind in my heart in my soul they have nothing on me....you dig!!!
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Amal Shah
Amal Shah
Hmm We knew u nada mood so nda berani banar kan kacau. I truly understand how u feel Yong. Orang yang kana buat cemani saja faham cemana sakitnya kana treat this way.
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Fatin Karim
Fatin Karim
apa nya c jul.. minum byk susu supaya kuat tulang belakang.. hehehe i still think it's a very clever way to say it, although i didnt get it at 1st.. :P
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Zmah Hm
Zmah Hm
haha apeh c fatin ah... hahahaha

i second you jul!
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Jul Hs
Jul Hs
awuuu iatah ku cakap tadi paham ko kah but hopefully ur exp atu tot me ada jua org mcm atu kan..n yes aku ni tadi minum susu iatah menguatkan tulang belakang...buat apa tani takut mun tani yg lurus kan??!!
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
zul, u read me!

amal, sorry ehh tadi ahh. i was trying to focus cos i didn't want kids' marks be affected by the shits tadi tu. didn't wanna kacau u jua. luckily my bf called tadi so beluah kajap.. will make it up to u guys tomorrow. aku jadi badut besuk kekeke :P

fatin, awu baik ko minum susu banyak2! begilin jua. baru kerasahan menampar muha urg atu! wawawawa :P
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Amal Shah
Amal Shah
Nda lah Yong, faham ku tu keadaan mu atu psl aku sendiri baru tekana this week so aku nda komplen, I truly understand ur situation, as I said org yg merasai saja yg faham tu :)
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Herni Juli
Herni Juli
what's up Zi? ada lgi kah...atu sadang org atu..bh monday ceta k..relax Zi ah...bwa bsabar aja...weekend ni, bwa brehat k
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Herni,not sure the same bitch or not.For sure it made my day! If i still feel this way tomorrow,i won't go marking.I don't wanna make mistakes.Kesian kanak2 punya papers.Now am jalan2ing with sharul.Buang sasak!!
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Aku Punya
Aku Punya .....sabar dear.....org yg jahati ko ...org jealous kn ko...sal u r more better,beautiful, cute, charming n sexy....juz think that way.....sure will mengubat hati hehehe.....take a break take kit kat...;-)
Yesterday at 7:22pm · ·
Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
Gadz,thanks darl : ) yatah kan mencari kit kat ni ; )
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Hjh Lily Hj Matamit
sabar dlenk! me nda brapa tau cerita ni. nanti update.p/s hp my huby tu dlenk rh mu mmsg ah.
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Suzila Ahmad
Suzila Ahmad
ka lily, thank u. for details, ask zul. & sorry eh. luan banyak wah your phone lines atu. kongpiussss :P
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I appreciate the warning. I'm thankful for the kind thoughts. I'm hurt but I'm blessed at the same time.

Later on during dinner with Sharul, a text message came in. It was the informer. It said:

"From my spy at your school: I feel sorry for Suzi. It's not nice for her to know people have been bad mouthing her when she's only doing the best she can. It goes to show we shouldn't hear or see one side of the story. And honestly, if you hadn't told me, I wouldn't have only known that one side."

So I replied:

"Thanks. So much. Somehow it's good knowing how they feel about me so I could 'behave' meeting their expectations. Not doing it to please them but it's the nature me for feeling really bad knowing I've offended any individual. You've no idea how I appreciate you warning me. Am hurt but hey! That's life!"

And the informer texted back:

"From my conversation with my spy just now, it seems like you did not offend anyone. It's like someone there envy you so you've been bad mouthed. Just watch your back."

... And that's all it matters to me .... The rest, it's another shitty day, but who am I to stop them bitching about me? We can't stop them, can we?? There's no point arguing. Leaving them be is better than BECOMING THEM! As long as I know I am not as what they said (though I've been worried sick whether I DID offend anybody), everything seems pretty normal to me. That's life!

Saturday, 24 October 2009

The room

The morning light has been forgotten the past few days. In fact, our mornings and afternoons have been spent in a room full of us ready with red pens in our hands. I was early but they were always earlier. And so, their battles had begun way before mine started. Why the battle? Coz the room is where we use up our brain while the eyes and fingers move on those writings, or shall I say ... rubbish for most of them.

Today is the fourth day. I woke up with a sore throat and a bit of fever. Yesterday was the worst so far, maybe due to the hiking yesterday morning (with Lulu and Yatie) that when I entered the room, I felt my head heavy. I had to leave the room and spent about 15-20 minutes nap in my car in the parking lot. The pillow I bought the night before had eased the battle arena for I couldn't feel my butt the past days due to many hours of sitting down.

It's good that the room has better air conditioners now: the chief had workers repaired them after complaints of warm air in the room. Not to be nags. We need the comfort. After all, it's the room filled with "sighs" and "errghs". It witnesses us making sense of certain vocabularies, that it takes all our brains to work like rolling machines. So far, many have corrupted our very own grammar hard drive.

Empty or short scripts annoy me. It's disappointing mostly. What were they thinking??

In between the crooked brows, sometimes the room's filled with laughters. This could help in a way especially when the jokes were shared. I see this whole making-noise-in-the-supposedly-quite-room differently this year: we all need to let it out or it'll affect the scoring of the candidates. Besides, being annoyed won't help with the pressure or stress level. Sharing the bad scripts somehow helps release the headaches. After 4 years of being in the battlefield, I've learnt this other side of the coin.

So today is the fifth day. 6th November seems so far away. The room is waiting for me, and those other markers with red armours between their fingers. This sore throat will go away. Being sick won't help I know. Or maybe I'll have the weekend off tomorrow. I know I need the rest.

The room will still wait for me. That I am sure of.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

The entries I found..

I shook and cried reading these entries.. Hadiki.. I miss you pal. I really do..

http://soulkonekshen.blogspot.com/2006/08/fifteen-o-eight.html
http://soulkonekshen.blogspot.com/2007/08/he-turns-27-1508.html

My heart breaks reading Mas' entries above. He's strong enough to do so.. I can't.. :'( We love you Hadiki. Always do and always will.. :'(

Sunday, 18 October 2009

The thought about LIFE ..

"Life is all about breathing in and grasping the good air,
and letting out the bad ones.
That's when people start talking shits
and seeing just the good things they perceive.."

Saturday, 17 October 2009

The beautiful morning


It's half past six in the morning. The sound of raindrops on the rooftop is sending music to the ears. The cold breeze and wet weather are not good for my lungs but the day is so beautiful not to be enjoyed. What a perfect day for a looooooong nap and cuddle in bed but hey! I gotta get my ass off the bed now. Workloads await boohooo~~~

Raindrops on rooftop
Ticking beautifully with melody
The heart sings fingers tapping
A beautiful day today it seems
Cold breeze wet weather
How I wish to stay in here
Forget papers on the desk
Nap in bed now till dusk

Beautiful day. Hope it won't be spoiled again like Thursday pfft!!

Friday, 16 October 2009

The tears of ..

We got invited by Hadiki's mom to pay him a visit today after lunch time. He was our classmate in UBD TESL course 99/03 till that fateful day in November 2002 when he got a stroke all of a sudden. It happened after he had his sahur in Ramadhan, spotted by his little brother. Hadiki is never the same since :'(

We miss him dearly. The last time we visited him was 6-7 years ago. We had always wanted to pay a visit but time had always been a problem. Louie and Mas usually shared with us his latest updates, especially on his health.

Hadiki I remember was full of life, ideas and jokes. He was the clown of the class :D I have always thought of what a funny guy he was. Once, I was waiting at the CLT area when he drove passed us. He screeched to a halt when he realised books and papers flying away from the top of his car. He had left them there and drove! I couldn't help my self that I laughed at him non stop! He had to shhush me! And he was all blushing hehehe :P He also planned to make an announcement on 29th February that year that he was open for proposals by the female students in the campus LOL!

Hadiki was also a true friend when I was in need. I remember we talked about so many things. We once talked about long distance relationship, which he believed wouldn't work. Also when I was sad, he was there for me saying that I should be tough when having trials as such. He said he believed in me. That was the nicest thing a guy friend could ever say :')

Today, we talked to him and like he did before with Louie, he responded to us too! He cried! :') That's an improvement, alhamdulillah :) We all hope he will be more improved in future gatherings :) We want him to know that we still remember him and care for him..

Hadiki, we love you pal. You will always be in our hearts. Always :')

All of us today, some couldn't make it.. What a day to remember.. :')


PS: Hadiki's mom texted us tonight, saying how thankful she was for us to come visited her son. The line that touched me was when she said: "We will never know how lonely his world is." This brought tears to my eyes :'(

I AM AN ARIES: The Daredevil (huh??)

Energetic (yea, in many ways)

Adventurous and spontaneous (definitely)

Confident and enthusiastic (yup!)

Fun (hmm ... I should ask my friends that!)

Loves a challenge (100%)

EXTREMELY impatient (well, I hate waiting. Does that count??)

Sometimes selfish (am I??)

Short fuse; easily angered (hell yeah!)

Lively, passionate and sharp wit (hmm ... No comment!)

Outgoing (for sure!)

Lose interest quickly - easily bored (most of the time)

Egostical (in some ways; my baby says "in MANY ways" LOL!!)

Courageous and assertive (I agree!)

Tends to be physical and athletic (hmm ... Naah!!)

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