~~ Suzila A ~~ ..... Just being ME here .....: 10,000 Times Sadness

Thursday, 5 June 2008

10,000 Times Sadness

Hmmm ...

No words could describe

All the feelings I have inside

Having you for just a while

Was all I dream of

Yet now it's spoiled

You came to my life
Like stars up above

Blinking your light

Shining so bright

A sprinkle of it

You formed inside

All too late

Yet so quick

Couldn't make you stay
Couldn't let you here

Couldn't send you away

Couldn't keep you anyway

Now all has gone
Memories intact

Tears flow

My heart aches

The thought of you remains

Can't turn back time now

Not dare hoping no more

Only guilt keeps me low

Can't say much now

Just see others' live

When mine's gone

Wordless, just ....

Hmmm ...

2 comments:

teacher normas said...: Hai ling,
I read ur poem.mm...kenapa ni ling? Sedih saja? Something happened? If anything, you can call me or jumpa aku if u need someone to talk to, k.; 6 June 2008 at 01:25
Suzila A said...: Thanks dear. Just feeling blue and letting out what's inside ...; 6 June 2008 at 06:38

I AM AN ARIES: The Daredevil (huh??)

Energetic (yea, in many ways)

Adventurous and spontaneous (definitely)

Confident and enthusiastic (yup!)

Fun (hmm ... I should ask my friends that!)

Loves a challenge (100%)

EXTREMELY impatient (well, I hate waiting. Does that count??)

Sometimes selfish (am I??)

Short fuse; easily angered (hell yeah!)

Lively, passionate and sharp wit (hmm ... No comment!)

Outgoing (for sure!)

Lose interest quickly - easily bored (most of the time)

Egostical (in some ways; my baby says "in MANY ways" LOL!!)

Courageous and assertive (I agree!)

Tends to be physical and athletic (hmm ... Naah!!)

Reminder

"Hey Muslimin with Iman! Seek assistance with patience and solat. For Allah is always with those who have the patience in heart. When you are shaken with fright, suffocated with sadness and haunted with worries, rise and do your solat. For calm will come in you because solat can shower your inner soul with peace that we will finally be able to accept the destiny that Allah has set on us with the heart free of burden."

"Rasulullah (pbuh) once visited a man who was sick and said in his sabda: be glad because Allah swt said in his firman: sickness is My fire that I depress on you as compensations for the sins you have done so to shield you from Hell in the hereafter -- Abu Hurairah (ra)"

My Prayers

"Ya Allah, I don't deserve Your Heaven yet I can't endure the heat of Your Hell down below. I am just a servant of Yours who seek Your sympathy and love. Your forgiveness is all I ask. Ya Allah, make me among those with taqwa, forgive all my sins, of my parents, and of my brothers and sisters of Islam. And of those who are walking Your wide earth, and those who have passed. Only You I bow to and only You are my God, the merciful, forgiver and the owner of Your Arasy. To You ya Allah, I have all my faith. Please accept my prayer."

"I pray for the safety and health of my family: my father cleanses from his continuous coughing, and mom from her hypertension. My sisters and brothers to stay strongly knit with one another, me to live happier leaving my agony and pain behind."

"I pray for the best for me if that is what You have intended to. I pray for my health and for everybody to live long: my dad, my mum, my siblings, and sisters and brothers of Islam. Give us all Your blessings and love Ya Allah. We are Your servants who longed for Your Heaven."

"Please keep me strong Ya Allah when Your tests hit me. I am Your weak servant seeking for Your mercy. Give me strength at heart and the fear of Your Hell fire. Strengthen my Imaan and purify my soul. I amYour servant hoping for Your eternal embrace."

"I pray that You give Your blessings on me and Sharul. Make our path clear and our lives full of joyful tears. Please make our plannings easy. Please make our dreams come true. Please make him mine, and I'm his, in the name of You and Your Rasul. Make us one Ya Allah. Please .. "

"Please give us hopes and the wishes to always be together till the end .. Aamiiinnnn ..."

Thoughts Of The Day

Never hurt the hearts of your loved ones as hearts are like roses that never bloom again.

Letting go is watching one leave with your heart attached to where he's heading.

Turning the page of your life ahead is closing the page of your past so looking back is usually unnecessary especially when it's a torment to one self.

To forgive is to forget, so as it seems, but you can never forget the trust that has been crushed.

To be free is to fly away. To leave is to let go. To stay is loving till the end.

Time is the best healer but the scar lasts forever.

Never frown, even when you are sad because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

Hoping for someone, somewhere, gotta make you dream. Quit thinking of someone, somewhere, gotta stop you dream.

Love is a sweet torment; it makes you smile and cry all at the same time ...

Love is a sweet torment: sweeter than honey, more hurting than bee stings ...

When your heart calls my name, come to me. When mine calls yours, I'll do the same.

Life is empty without a gentle breeze of thought you blow on me. Mine will wake you up in the morning and kiss you good night before you go to sleep.

The hardest trial is going through the day without you besides me. Life is just meaningful with the sight of you metres away. Knowing you standing there simply draws a smile on my face!

Insecurity creates a weak mind. Feed your heart with optimisms and kick away those pessimist thoughts of others.

The heart has its own mind and soul. Take care of it and cherish every single air that you breathe.

Sometimes you have to hurt someone you love to keep the best there is in a relationship.

Bukan lah hidup jika tanpa dugaan
Bukan lah hidup jika tanpa kesedihan
Hidup bermakna dengan senyuman
Hidup bernilai seiring kepercayaan
Tiada yang sempurna selain Nya
Hanya Dia penentu segala
Kepada Nya kita berdoa
Kala pagi kelopak mata terbuka
Kala siang hati mengenang Nya
Bersama sujudku aku nyatakan
Siapalah aku tanpa Mu Tuhan
Dan kepada Mu jua lah aku pulang

Sometimes, when a soul ruins another, after dozens of second chances and multiple times of forgiveness, the string of friendship breaks as patience has crossed its limit.

Keeping a friendship strong needs two sides. Breaking it up only needs one. When it happens, nothing much can be done nor to amend but let it stay in the past when friendship crashes to the ground.

Truth can hurt an awful lot but in the end it can always set you free.

When the other half is gone, matching the missing pieces seems impossible ...

When the destination is set, no matter how long the journey takes, it doesn't matter. Life is much lovelier when you meet experiences and obstacles along the way.

Happiness comes when sadness has passed on so smile today coz you will laugh tomorrow.

You can never get bored of loving but get pretty tired of hating.

You can never guess what's coming til you face the truth that's meant.

There have been gems amongst us who changed the course of the world because they could look at the world differently. Their thinking is unique and not everyone understood them. They were opposed. Yet they emerged winners and the world was amazed" - Amir Khan in "Taare Zameen Per".

Eyes can see but seldom look clearly. So believe in what you have faith in because heart has the strongest conscience, of course with the great pull of sanity of the brain.

Life is all about breathing in and grasping the good air, and letting out the bad ones. That's when people start talking shits and seeing just the good things they want to perceive.

Appreciate your loved ones because when they are no longer around, your heart sores with their absence.

Tears may fall and heart breaks today but tomorrow will always come waiting for your smile.

Calories Intake for All

Fast Food:
- Cheese Burger (305 each)
- Mc Muffin Egg (280 each)
- Fish Fillet (370 each)
- Medium Fries (320/order)
- Fried Chicken (415 each)
- Pizza (450/slice)
- Garlic Bread (130/slice)
- Banana Split (510/serve)
- Vanilla Cone (230/cone)
- Sandwich (300-400/set)

Dairy Products:
- Cooking Oil (135/tablespoon)
- Full Cream Milk (150/cup)
- Cheese (95/slice)
- Yogurt (200/cup)
- Ice Cream (165/100gm)
- Jam (55/tablespoon)
- Jam (55/tablespoon)
- Mayonnaise (78/tablespoon)
- Peanut Butter (95/tablespoon)
- Butter (100/tablespoon)
- Miracle Whip (70/tablespoon)

Grains:
- Cooked Rice (100/half cup)
- White Bread (70/slice)
- Quaker Oats (110/quarter cup)
- Cooked Macaroni (155/cup)
- Pita Bread (66/half piece)
- Muffin (310/slice)
- Pancake (300/slice)
- Plain Porridge (100/bowl)
- Noodles Soup (750/bowl)
- Fried Noodles (850/plate)
- Fried Rice (750/bowl)
- Wonton Soup (230/4 pieces)

Fruits:
- Apple (70/piece)
- Banana (100/medium)
- Dates (490/cup)
- Grapes (35/10 pieces)
- Orange (50/medium)
- Durian (125/2 pieces)
- Pineapple (50/slice)
- Mango (120/medium)
- Kiwi (45/piece)
- Papaya (70/slice)
- Peach (39/piece)
- Canned Peach (80/half cup)

Vegetables:
- Broccoli (40/cup)
- Carrots (16/cup)
- Corn (120/piece)
- Onions (65/cup)
- Baked Beans (200/cup)
- Shredded Coconut (450/cup)
- Avocado (310/piece)
- Tofu Bean Curd (40/piece)
- Pea (80/cup)

Sauces or Flavouring:
- Honey (65/tablespoon)
- Chilli/Tomato Sauce (20/tablespoon)
- Chicken Cube (8/cube)

Appetizers:
- Coleslaw (76/2 oz)
- Chicken Pao/Bun (280/piece)
- Deep Fried Roll (136/piece)
- Potato Salad (180/4 oz)
- Baked Potato (220/piece)
- Peanuts (420/half cup)

Drinks:
- Soft Drinks (80/can)
- Coffee without sugar (4/cup)
- Sugar (13/tablespoon)
- Low Fat Milk (125/cup)
- Skimmed Milk (85/cup)
- Plain Milo (80/cup)
- Choclate Milk (300/cup)
- Apple Juice (80/glass)
- Fresh Orange Juice (83/glass)
- Tomato Juice (42/glass)
- Prune Juice (120/glass)
- Plain Lipton Tea (2/cup)

Meat:
- Roasted or Steamed Chicken (280/piece)
- Chicken Liver (30/piece)
- Sausage (145/piece)
- Lambchop (340/90g)
- Sirlion Steak (230/3 oz)
- Boiled Fish Ball (50/10 pieces)
- Fried Beef (170/100g)
- Barbecue Fish (350/100g)
- Sardine (360/100g)
- Oysters (50/5 pieces)
- Canned Tuna (144/4 oz)
- Fried Chicken Chop (400/100g)
- Boiled Egg (80/piece)

Dessert Cakes:
- Cheese Cake (400/slice)
- Apple Pie (320/slice)
- Plain Donut (100/piece)
- English Muffin (140/piece)
- Coconut Roll (130/piece)
- Fried Banana (190/piece)
- Layered Cake (100/slice)
- Graham Crakers (55/piece)
- Chips Ahoy! (160/3 pieces)
- Oreo Cookies (150/3 pieces)
- Pringles Chips (170/1 oz)
- Kit Kat Bar (160/bar)
- Egg Tart (320/piece)
- Brownies (140/piece)

MY JANUARY SCHEDULE

1st - My engagement, 3pm-4pm :')

2nd - Family BBQ, 8pm-1am

3rd - Returning "gangsa" at 4pm

4th - Year 9 Orientation Day
- Lunch out with Bibi :)
- Tea with Bibi and Hjh Sara :)

5th & 6th - Year 7 Orientation Day

6th - Staff meeting at 2pm

8th - To Petlink Vet bringing Fluffy at 5pm

10th - Two orders of Lasagna by 3pm

11th - HEP meeting at 2pm

12th - One lasagna order by 5pm

15th - PMB re-sit marking meet at SMB at 8am
- One order of lasagna at 7.30am

20th - "Dialog Bersama Menteri" at PTE Katok at 8am
- Professional Development on Counseling at 2pm

22nd - Professional visit to SM Limbang at 7.30am

23rd - Kiem & Suria's birthdays treat at Excapade Gadong at 7.30pm

25th - SMT meeting I at 2pm

26th - Heads Sections meeting at 2.15pm
- SBC2007/SBC2009 meeting at JSS at 2.30pm

27th - SPA Functional English and Communication course at CDD at 2pm

29th - Morning hike at Markucing

Birthday Reminder:
20th - Kiem's and Doctor Fandy's
28th - Suria's

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