Life without sadness is life without happiness. Both feelings strongly connect to one another as happiness only comes when sadness has passed on.
So sprinkle a bit of laughter and a clinch of thoughts in your days,
put aside your pain and enjoy every moment what life's within.
Seconds ticking to our Big Day
Seconds ticking since Suzila is HIS
Sunday, 25 October 2009
The bad day and facebook comments
So it started when I hung out at a friend's office at the workplace I'm doing the marking. She then came up with an info that she knew a few colleagues of mine, who, according to her, had mentioned me and another colleague, Z. They told her that I am a BOSSY bitch at work and that Z is DISORGANISED. I don't know about me but I am sure Z is NOT DISORGANISED. Without her, the place is a wreck! About me being BOSSY .. that I need sincere comments from others.
I updated my Facebook status right away and by the end of the day, I got some very supporting comments. Some are in Malay and I've decided not to change any of it. I treasure all my friends' thoughts of me.
Ling... andangnya people see only one side... mun kan diikutkan wah... tani pun buleh point out THEIR own mistakes... lagitah ketara and irresponsible. hugsss
you gotta show 'em! well bukan plg ku nyuruh kelaie. haha...
Iqa,thanks *hugs* zmah,zul..Awu,mental ku hari ni sampai marking pun slow.Wonder ku jua bila masa jua ku cematu?? Yatah kan,mun sudah sakit hati arah dangan,apa2 pun ku buat,bida tah dimata bisdia.Boring eh!! Hmmph!!!
yeap. as long as those who matters knows what we do. i can think of why they'd say that zi.. anyway, andangnya human nature kan... sudah something bad happens... find blame... tapi anikan tarang2 sudah masih g kan blame orang. pfft.
kamu .. kamu .. kamu .. *tsk tsk* aku sasakkkk! *breathe in breathe out* jalan ku ni!!!
kepada manusia2 yg banci aku atu, hentam tah kamu! cakap tah kamu sana tu. tapi ingat! inda selamanya kamu hidup memfitnah, memburukkan urang lain. so sebelum kamu mati, baik tah insaf. nda ku kacau hidup kamu. sabar saja ku.
zul, we just do what we have to do babe. BERSABAR. Allah lagi tau. i feel ya. nda siok nyamu kena buat cemani! BORINGGG!! *sigh*
andangnya tapi i will do what i do as i do as i wish as long as what i do is right by me by my religion by my conscience so they can say what they want when they want for i know in my mind in my heart in my soul they have nothing on me....you dig!!!
Hmm We knew u nada mood so nda berani banar kan kacau. I truly understand how u feel Yong. Orang yang kana buat cemani saja faham cemana sakitnya kana treat this way.
apa nya c jul.. minum byk susu supaya kuat tulang belakang.. hehehe i still think it's a very clever way to say it, although i didnt get it at 1st.. :P
awuuu iatah ku cakap tadi paham ko kah but hopefully ur exp atu tot me ada jua org mcm atu kan..n yes aku ni tadi minum susu iatah menguatkan tulang belakang...buat apa tani takut mun tani yg lurus kan??!!
amal, sorry ehh tadi ahh. i was trying to focus cos i didn't want kids' marks be affected by the shits tadi tu. didn't wanna kacau u jua. luckily my bf called tadi so beluah kajap.. will make it up to u guys tomorrow. aku jadi badut besuk kekeke :P
fatin, awu baik ko minum susu banyak2! begilin jua. baru kerasahan menampar muha urg atu! wawawawa :P
Nda lah Yong, faham ku tu keadaan mu atu psl aku sendiri baru tekana this week so aku nda komplen, I truly understand ur situation, as I said org yg merasai saja yg faham tu :)
Herni,not sure the same bitch or not.For sure it made my day! If i still feel this way tomorrow,i won't go marking.I don't wanna make mistakes.Kesian kanak2 punya papers.Now am jalan2ing with sharul.Buang sasak!!
Aku Punya.....sabar dear.....org yg jahati ko ...org jealous kn ko...sal u r more better,beautiful, cute, charming n sexy....juz think that way.....sure will mengubat hati hehehe.....take a break take kit kat...;-)
I appreciate the warning. I'm thankful for the kind thoughts. I'm hurt but I'm blessed at the same time.
Later on during dinner with Sharul, a text message came in. It was the informer. It said:
"From my spy at your school: I feel sorry for Suzi. It's not nice for her to know people have been bad mouthing her when she's only doing the best she can. It goes to show we shouldn't hear or see one side of the story. And honestly, if you hadn't told me, I wouldn't have only known that one side."
So I replied:
"Thanks. So much. Somehow it's good knowing how they feel about me so I could 'behave' meeting their expectations. Not doing it to please them but it's the nature me for feeling really bad knowing I've offended any individual. You've no idea how I appreciate you warning me. Am hurt but hey! That's life!"
And the informer texted back:
"From my conversation with my spy just now, it seems like you did not offend anyone. It's like someone there envy you so you've been bad mouthed. Just watch your back."
... And that's all it matters to me .... The rest, it's another shitty day, but who am I to stop them bitching about me? We can't stop them, can we?? There's no point arguing. Leaving them be is better than BECOMING THEM! As long as I know I am not as what they said (though I've been worried sick whether I DID offend anybody), everything seems pretty normal to me. That's life!
Sabar ling!!! Andangnya orang ani kalau jeles..mcm2 tia mulut dorg ahh iatah membari kan di ladai tuuu..
Cubatah ah orang2 cematu atu kalau 'ENVY' atu ditukar tah jadi POSITIF MAJUKAN DIRI KE HADAPAN BUKAN 'ENVY' ATU DITUKAR NEGATIF MUNDURKAN DIRI MEMBURUKKAN ORANG!! Iatah tipikal tu orang tani bila cemburu/takut orang naik pangkat..BEST WAY FOR THEM ... BAD MOUTH PEOPLE.. I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW THOSE IDIOTIC PEOPLE THINK.. SOMETIME I WANNA DISSECT THEIR BRAIN & TIGHTEN THEIR LOOSEN SCREW AHAHAHAHHAAHAHAA... ishhh sabar...
Aikk aku plg emosi hehehe..Banar jua tu ling.. sabar ye u know yourself better :)
thanks maya. i've had this multiple times this year. now am used to it that i don't really care no more.
it's just that i was concerned whether i've MADE them think of me that way. now i know it's NOT me. it's some envious people out there who started the so called tagged name of me: BOSSY BITCH. and you know what, i feel better knowing that.
i concern more if i've offended anybody particular hence the tagged name.
According to recent Dr. Phil's personality test that I took, I gotta agree to the results that I got ;) It says:
"Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who will always cheer them up and help them out."
Well, I want to add some to that!
I am straight forward, honest and some said I have a big mouth so some people like my company, some don't. I am alright with that. Who am I to make them like me anyway! I love writing and this is one of the reasons why I open up this site. In fact, my Tagged friends requested me to open a blogsite coz they enjoy my writing. Hmmm... after some thoughts, I finally decided to have one. I hope you enjoy my page here folks!
On our engagement day with our babies, January 2010
Miri, May 2010
Eid, September 2010
Our Nikah, 01.01.11
Our wedding reception, 09.01.11
... Wishing For This ...
Reminder
"Hey Muslimin with Iman! Seek assistance with patience and solat. For Allah is always with those who have the patience in heart. When you are shaken with fright, suffocated with sadness and haunted with worries, rise and do your solat. For calm will come in you because solat can shower your inner soul with peace that we will finally be able to accept the destiny that Allah has set on us with the heart free of burden."
"Rasulullah (pbuh) once visited a man who was sick and said in his sabda: be glad because Allah swt said in his firman: sickness is My fire that I depress on you as compensations for the sins you have done so to shield you from Hell in the hereafter -- Abu Hurairah (ra)"
My Prayers
"Ya Allah, I don't deserve Your Heaven yet I can't endure the heat of Your Hell down below. I am just a servant of Yours who seek Your sympathy and love. Your forgiveness is all I ask. Ya Allah, make me among those with taqwa, forgive all my sins, of my parents, and of my brothers and sisters of Islam. And of those who are walking Your wide earth, and those who have passed. Only You I bow to and only You are my God, the merciful, forgiver and the owner of Your Arasy. To You ya Allah, I have all my faith. Please accept my prayer."
"I pray for the safety and health of my family: my father cleanses from his continuous coughing, and mom from her hypertension. My sisters and brothers to stay strongly knit with one another, me to live happier leaving my agony and pain behind."
"I pray for the best for me if that is what You have intended to. I pray for my health and for everybody to live long: my dad, my mum, my siblings, and sisters and brothers of Islam. Give us all Your blessings and love Ya Allah. We are Your servants who longed for Your Heaven."
"Please keep me strong Ya Allah when Your tests hit me. I am Your weak servant seeking for Your mercy. Give me strength at heart and the fear of Your Hell fire. Strengthen my Imaan and purify my soul. I amYour servant hoping for Your eternal embrace."
"I pray that You give Your blessings on me and Sharul. Make our path clear and our lives full of joyful tears. Please make our plannings easy. Please make our dreams come true. Please make him mine, and I'm his, in the name of You and Your Rasul. Make us one Ya Allah. Please .. "
"Please give us hopes and the wishes to always be together till the end .. Aamiiinnnn ..."
Me and Azean, KL 2007
BLA+1's caricature
Thoughts Of The Day
Never hurt the hearts of your loved ones as hearts are like roses that never bloom again.
Letting go is watching one leave with your heart attached to where he's heading.
Turning the page of your life ahead is closing the page of your past so looking back is usually unnecessary especially when it's a torment to one self.
To forgive is to forget, so as it seems, but you can never forget the trust that has been crushed.
To be free is to fly away. To leave is to let go. To stay is loving till the end.
Time is the best healer but the scar lasts forever.
Never frown, even when you are sad because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Hoping for someone, somewhere, gotta make you dream. Quit thinking of someone, somewhere, gotta stop you dream.
Love is a sweet torment; it makes you smile and cry all at the same time ...
Love is a sweet torment: sweeter than honey, more hurting than bee stings ...
When your heart calls my name, come to me. When mine calls yours, I'll do the same.
Life is empty without a gentle breeze of thought you blow on me. Mine will wake you up in the morning and kiss you good night before you go to sleep.
The hardest trial is going through the day without you besides me. Life is just meaningful with the sight of you metres away. Knowing you standing there simply draws a smile on my face!
Insecurity creates a weak mind. Feed your heart with optimisms and kick away those pessimist thoughts of others.
The heart has its own mind and soul. Take care of it and cherish every single air that you breathe.
Sometimes you have to hurt someone you love to keep the best there is in a relationship.
Bukan lah hidup jika tanpa dugaan Bukan lah hidup jika tanpa kesedihan Hidup bermakna dengan senyuman Hidup bernilai seiring kepercayaan Tiada yang sempurna selain Nya Hanya Dia penentu segala Kepada Nya kita berdoa Kala pagi kelopak mata terbuka Kala siang hati mengenang Nya Bersama sujudku aku nyatakan Siapalah aku tanpa Mu Tuhan Dan kepada Mu jua lah aku pulang
Sometimes, when a soul ruins another, after dozens of second chances and multiple times of forgiveness, the string of friendship breaks as patience has crossed its limit.
Keeping a friendship strong needs two sides. Breaking it up only needs one. When it happens, nothing much can be done nor to amend but let it stay in the past when friendship crashes to the ground.
Truth can hurt an awful lot but in the end it can always set you free.
When the other half is gone, matching the missing pieces seems impossible ...
When the destination is set, no matter how long the journey takes, it doesn't matter. Life is much lovelier when you meet experiences and obstacles along the way.
Happiness comes when sadness has passed on so smile today coz you will laugh tomorrow.
You can never get bored of loving but get pretty tired of hating.
You can never guess what's coming til you face the truth that's meant.
There have been gems amongst us who changed the course of the world because they could look at the world differently. Their thinking is unique and not everyone understood them. They were opposed. Yet they emerged winners and the world was amazed" - Amir Khan in "Taare Zameen Per".
Eyes can see but seldom look clearly. So believe in what you have faith in because heart has the strongest conscience, of course with the great pull of sanity of the brain.
Life is all about breathing in and grasping the good air, and letting out the bad ones. That's when people start talking shits and seeing just the good things they want to perceive.
Appreciate your loved ones because when they are no longer around, your heart sores with their absence.
Tears may fall and heart breaks today but tomorrow will always come waiting for your smile.
you gotta show 'em! well bukan plg ku nyuruh kelaie. haha...
suuuuyaaaaaa, horsey wannaa hear the real meowing story from uuu
i second you jul!
Later on during dinner with Sharul, a text message came in. It was the informer. It said:
"From my spy at your school: I feel sorry for Suzi. It's not nice for her to know people have been bad mouthing her when she's only doing the best she can. It goes to show we shouldn't hear or see one side of the story. And honestly, if you hadn't told me, I wouldn't have only known that one side."
So I replied:
"Thanks. So much. Somehow it's good knowing how they feel about me so I could 'behave' meeting their expectations. Not doing it to please them but it's the nature me for feeling really bad knowing I've offended any individual. You've no idea how I appreciate you warning me. Am hurt but hey! That's life!"
And the informer texted back:
"From my conversation with my spy just now, it seems like you did not offend anyone. It's like someone there envy you so you've been bad mouthed. Just watch your back."