Have You Ever ...

Have you ever
Felt so weak
When you wake up
Can't even speak
Or to even seek
What the source is
Of your agony
That makes you sick
And to explode
To the extend
You can't remove
Or even erase
Whatever is in you
Even feel sicker
When you can't halt
When your body shakes
As tears roll down
Your very face
And what's worse
Your eyes can't even close
As your brain wanders
To wherever past has gone to
And sadness you only feel
Till you finally roll in bed
To tirely sleep
Have you ever
Felt this way
When all you see
Is your mistakes ever made
That you can't seem to shove away
Makes you rot inside
Like fleas eating up the dust
To pieces making you rust
Hours to last
Minutes to crush
Seconds to mash
That tracks you back
To Whom you forever belong
And to where you should go
As fogs had covered
The path you should follow
Made you realise
Your life is a journey
Where you must lead
To make yourself see
How beautiful life can be
If only guilt let you free
Let me free ...