Recalling back, as far as myself is concerned, I did my very best career wise, yet there were a few parties that were somehow against me. No explanation I could find to why they reacted as such but dear friends had always consoled me by saying 'jealousy' as the main reason. You know what .. deep inside, I don't feel so. Because I am just being me, have always been, and I do what I gotta do. You can say I am the 'robot' of my very own career. They say this, I won't say that. I know who I am. I am just a civil servant who's trying to make ends meet. Above all. I am a nobody who is so much looking forward to a happy working environment, with no drama, no politics, no bullshits. Just work.
I am happier in the new workplace, but everybody needs time to settle down and get to know everybody well. Misunderstanding happened a lot this year that it's just turning the friendly place dull. Networking online had also caused troubles at work. Really, I don't have time to entertain such wasted childish acts. And I thought everybody was wishing for a freedom of speech! Enough said ..
And so .. work wise, 2009 sucks! Hence, this whole backstabbing and bitching gossips had somehow affected my relationship with Sharul. I think he's had enough of me complaining about work that he'd responded with just one word to my hundreds of miles of complaints: "Hmmm.." Damn it! It's not even a word! But I understand. He's got his own problems at work too so I got my sweet revenge by just pretending to listen to his lengthy complaints. Sometimes I annoyed him when I kept asking who was who in his complaints and he'd just show that annoyed face. Kesian my sayang .. Sorry baby. I will try to be your best listener in 2010 okay. Promise!
Financially, I suck too! Well, that had to go back to my feeling of annoyance over my dissatisfaction and injustice treatments I got at work. With these imbalanced hormones that I am having, spending and eating and spending and eating were all I had been doing when I was down. But I am glad for having dear friends around who were always free to accompany me burn back those calories I had added into my forever bulging tummy! You know who you are and girls, let's do more hiking and sweating in 2010!! :D
In less than an hour, it will be 2010. I am not setting any resolutions like I used to do before. I've got other things to worry about all year through (starting tomorrow). But I still have hopes and dreams. I just wish my plans will get on well for good. I don't want another 2009 in the rest of my life history.
Happy new year people! I honestly can't wait to wave 2009 goodbye. Welcome 2010!! May you bring multiple happiness to us all!! :)