Sometimes, I can't stop myself from wondering what my life brings me to: will I be happy? Or will I be other wise? Even worse, will I be lonely? Or for the better? I wish for the better, who wouldn't make such wish eyh ..
I remember one encounter I had with a teen at school. He's one of those naughty ones who's always called to the Discipline Room. Somehow, he finds comfort talking to me, though to some others, I am found to be not a favourite! Well anyway, I made him talking on why is he always in trouble, why hasn't he learnt his lesson and such. Guess what his answer was: "Life is short teacher! Enjoy la!!"
Life is short, so we should enjoy it? Aaah! This comes with the phrase that I believe familiar with you all as well: "Live life the fullest." This brings back memories when I was back in Uni with Zean and our bunch of girlfriends. "Life life the fullest" was our theme but that didn't last long. It just didn't work for us. No questions asked!
Back to the topic. When I am sitting down and have myself thinking, the same questions hit me and looking at those around me, faces of my loved ones: my parents and my siblings, will I be able to see those laughters for long? Will my life be shortened? If any of them is taken away from me, how will I take it? Will I be able to??
This is not fear. This is me wondering. The time will come, yes. We all know that. The question is, "how" will I handle it? "How" will I survive without them? Or "how" will they move on without me??
Lame questions they may seem but lately, I can't help as my head's flowing with the thought.