The Past is Still Haunting ..

Back in Uni, I was backstabbed by a very close friend whom I worshipped to death. I trusted her, made her the first, even shared her my mum. We were like sisters. I had never had the closest friend as her and at times, I still miss her, even now.

What she did was just too much. Somehow, it's just unexplained why she ever did that to me after what we had gone through together. She even made my mum cry ....... The scar is still here and I am traumatised to ever trust anyone I called friends. Even my bestfriend, Azean, had to 'propose' me to be a friend of hers, which took me a while to accept as I was in such pain.

Now, it seems happening again, not to me, but between my two close friends. I guess I am trapped between the two. I don't want to add up the list of my 'ex-friends', nor do I want them to add theirs. For sure, it would not be the same again if ever they decided 'not' to be friends anymore.

I am sad. Very sad .........

All I wanted to do was to make things clear between them cause I'm sure what happens is a misunderstanding. I've known them for quite a long time and simply by listening to a third party or whoever is just not a right thing to do in a friendship. It happened to me, and it hurts. The last thing I want to do is causing pain to any of my friends. Cause I know, that feeling kills!

I am sad, and upset ......... And I know crying is not a solution.

To my two close friends ..... Please be friends again. Face the problem in a mature way. Don't stay away from each other or turn away. It won't help, trust me. I've done my part, which I am sorry if ever I've caused anyone of you to be mad, or feel backstabbed. My intention is just to keep our friendships strong. Nothing more, nothing less.

I hurt both of you, I know. I am sorry. As I said, I am not siding anyone. Please, settle this. Let's be friends again ........

:'(