Well anyway, I did go to bed about an hour after that, yet waking up still feeling bad about the whole thing. I guess, my brain wasn't really sleeping after all. I still stayed in bed after the Subuh prayer, trying to figure out how to handle the situation I was trapped in. I finally got on my senses and put aside my inner ego (yes, we women have that too!) and decided to handle it professionally. I texted Mas, thanking her for her advice and told her what I had planned to do.
I was late to work, partly coz of what I was feeling and obviously, the road was wet due to the pouring rain. The traffic? It was really bad! I took a peek at X's office, but the room was full with other colleagues. February is still hectic at work. Then after 8am, I finally saw X alone.
Me: Y just told me. I'm sorry for what happened at the office last time (shook X's hand).
Me: (still shaking X's hand) I'm really sorry. I meant it to other officers, not you.
X: Owhh (finally understood what I was babbling about) .. It's OK ..
Me: You're like a parent to me. I wouldn't want to hurt you. I'm sorry but I wasn't upset with you last time ..
X: No .. No .. Really, it's OK Zi. It's alright (smiling).
Me: You were not even in the committee list. Why would I be angry with you? So sorry you were offended ..
X: (hugged me) No Suzi. It's OK. Don't worry (still smiling).
Me: (hugged X back and went teary).
X: (smiled) It's alright. Don't worry about it.
Me: Thank you (smiled back)
So ... the rest of the day at work, I felt better. Just that, now I am still lost why in the world Y told me how offended X was over the whole thing. Especially when X didn't get it the moment I apologised over the whole thing ..
Hmmm ... still coping with @#$%&!! Sigh~~