I know there's a scientific reason for why we women suffer before the arrival of Miss Mooney. It's just ... painful. As for me, I feel the pain in all parts of my body, especially from the waist down. I could stay in bed the whole day bearing the pain. Yet, I wouldn't feel better by just lying down. In fact, I just can't sit, stand, lie down, any move is just PAINFUL! Not to mention my mood swings. And out of the blue last night, I read some mails I sent to my ex (NOT Sharul FYI) and I cried! I'm over him but reading those mails ... sigh! Sah! Aku PMS!
My family sometimes get the effect of my I-can't-control-my-bad-mood mood. Sometimes it gives me some time to realise that I had screamed at my siblings, even my parents. The victim at home is usually my mum (caaayang babu!!) but she always understands cause I'm a joker in the family, after Nurul and Azri. So when I blew up, she knows it's just a phase. The Miss Mooney phase.
So yeah, back to my qadha' fasts, I actually planned to fast yesterday but since I was going to meet Danny at the Ministry yesterday, so I decided not to in the end. Why? Me, Danny ... we EAT!! I can't remember any time of our meetings that we didn't sit down and order meals in between discussion. I didn't fast today too . I felt extremely exhausted yesterday that I just felt that fasting would just make me feel even worse. I had been ill since December last year and I just recently got my life back without those continuous coughs. I don't wanna fall sick again, not with Ramadhan coming soon. And now with the PMS. Erk! PMS+Flu+Coughs = Stay in Bed. I DON'T want that!! Not anymore!
InsyaAllah I will start fasting again this Saturday. I can't do tomorrow cause I am sending off Zainul to Army College with mum and dad. He'll be appointed Officer ~ Officer Cadet ~ tomorrow :) Before that, I'll be meeting Lulu at 10am. We've gotta browse through some readers for our department. Sigh~ It's gonna be another long day for me tomorrow then ...
Miss Mooney, stay away!! I've 3 more days to pay for my fast! Huhu ~
PS: Happy Birthday Puchen!! :) Love you bro!!