One of Those Days~

I had a fight with Sharul tonight ... :(

It started with my stupid bubbly mouth!

We went out as usual, lunch out after his Friday prayer then off buying stuff for my monthly use and errands. Then to a movie. We watched Babylon AD. We don't like the movie! Then on the way home, I got so affected by this Indonesian song; "Tiada Lagi" by Mayang Sari. It's one of those hit-to-my-heart songs. The message was the girl's given up hope on her guy. Just the right situation between me and Sharul.

I could feel him staring at me while I was singing along with the song. I guess he got hit too. Sigh~

Just before reaching his car, which he had parked somewhere, I blurted out what my mum had 'instructed' me of doing ~ to find a guy a.s.a.p. by December next year as she wants to see me on the aisle. I don't know what got into me tonight that I freely said that am planning to look for an 'orang putih' cause Malay men are just hard to trust these days.

I didn't realise Sharul's silence, till he was about to leave to his car. Holding on to my car door, he said, "I'll see babu (my mum) and tell her that I will be the groom. The ONLY groom!"

Again, I don't know what got into me. I smirked to his remarks! Guys! I SMIRKED at the guy whom I dream to marry. I even nudged on the door, trying to close it!! Something really got into me tonight!

Like a volcano, he erupted saying that he'd made the promise to make me his wife and he will keep that promise, no matter what and that nobody can ever do that except him.

I was a bitch! I SMIRKED at him again!! Sheesh!! Sigh~

I guess, I've heard that line too many times in the past 6 years we were together and tonight when he said it again, I just couldn't control myself ...

I left saying this to him:

"Before you see her, make sure you have that stable job and enough money to take me. Don't embarrass yourself!"

He echoed, "I will take care of that!!"

I drove off after that, with tears falling down my face .... :'(