Blast From the Past

I just read a blogger friend's entry today and it sort of reminded me on my past with some guys I befriended. Not that I have great experiences with guys but somehow, I made friends with boys more than girls when I was in high school right up to college.

I didn't have dozens of close female friends when I was in sec school. Most of my friends were boys, not of choice, but I rather see it as coming naturally. I guess they found me comfy to be with, like when they were with their male counterparts. Yet again, it got spoiled when they fell for me (you know, the monkey love thingy) and all changed in a split second. But towards the end, we became friends again. Ain't that sweet! Boys drop the past just like that! So, to be honest, I preferred befriending boys more than with girls in high school. Somehow most girls in their teen years were too sensitive over silly things and most of the time we ended up striking politics in class, which I never enjoyed! In the end, I gotta watch every single word that I used with these girls. This is boring! With boys, I got to tease, even swear at them yet they didn't give a s**t about it and we remained friends! With girls .... prrrggh!!

The same happened in college. Most of my gang were males. We were like families! We studied, hung out, had lunch, wherever together (NOT the toilets!). Too bad it changed when one of them had a crush on me, which changed everything, sigh~ I hate it, always hate it when it happens!!

You see, not that I am against girls. I love being with them but not all girls click you see. I only have one best girlfriend: Azean. Just one! Why? Cause we clicked! We had ups and downs together, did our stuff together, and most of all, we'll do anything for each other. With girls, we are more concerned with trust. With boys, I don't need trust! I just need comfort with them. I dunno how other girls and boys see about this but what I'm saying is what I see, and feel. Personally, with girls, there needs some sort of a bridge to connect us. Being friends with boys, there's no string attached!

I always had a blast with guys in the past. But now, it's rather difficult to find guys who are comfortable with girls around. Maybe it's due to the age we are now. I guess, age is the factor to controlling or limiting women and men's friendships. The older we grow, the tougher people's expectations are between the two species. I guess you know what I mean there! In sec school or college, people see us as kids. Whoever we hung out with, people would just simply see us as a group of friends. Now, eyes will follow wherever women and men go, especially when anyone of them is married. And marriage is strongly related to age! This is what I meant by difficult.

Now, remember my entry on the "Ex-Friend Chit-Chat"? I am not proud, but sad really. My bunch of ex-friends, all of them are girls. They hate me, which I can't do nothing about. I did try to change but I guess that's not enough for them. I guess, this is also another factor why I like become friends with guys more than girls. I am exhausted with girls cause I gotta watch my words, gestures, looks even! With boys, I can do whatever I want and be whoever I am.


PS: To "Double Ms", you know who you are. Thanks for accepting me for who I am. It's been years I hadn't been close to girls other than Azean. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!! :D